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I tried not
to write you, this poem, and failed.
I failed,
not writing you into this poem.
And there
you are, bright and clear as annoying dew
frosted at
the top of a flaming sword,
impossible,
but real.
I tried to
fold and push any emotions, tight, into a bundle
of rags
inside my head,
contained,
safe,
in a box squared
with the walls of the real, and it failed,
it failed
to hold it all.
Its walls
imploded for a long second, then fell and
hung in the
air, shaped like the butterflies
they were
trying to kill.
Boxing
emotions is a heavy-weight combat,
I used to
be the world champ of that.
Now I lay
defeated on the ring,
the referee
counting on top of me
as I spit
out the bloody words
with every
second, waiting for the bell:
three, two,
one,
and my
reason becomes nothing,
I control
nothing,
I am
nothing
but a sigh,
a tremor, a surrendering beast
under the
heavy boot
of the
impossible turned to real
that so coolly
defeats me.
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